When I decided to do this year long meditation journey, I was nervous about sticking to it without having any accountability, but it has actually been quite easy. Being able to think about it as 30 days at a time, rather than the big goal of a whole year, has shifted my perspective and makes it all feel easy to reach as a goal.

Since I already have a daily practice with journaling, somatic movement, and such adding in a specific meditation has been relatively easy. However, there are days that I certainly do not feel called to sit tall and go through a meditation, but I have and it has been a beautiful journey thus far.

Diving into my heart was what I chose for this month’s experience because I wanted to create a deeper connection with myself. I recently let go of my business that I spent 2 years trying to get some momentum with. I still sense that there are many pieces of my life puzzle that I have yet to find the place for, and instead of continuing to try and force answers and direction I just simply wanted to be. I wanted to just spend time with myself without trying to figure something out in the process.

I have spent time this month connecting with my heart daily through meditations focused on the heart chakra where I am visualizing a light in my heart and spreading this light to those I love, I have done heart coherence meditations where I use my breath to connect to my heart by imagining I am breathing through it. I tried, and enjoyed, a Kabbalistic Awaken Heart Opening meditation I found that feels soothing to my heart. During all of these I found that my greatest joy during them is when I am holding my heart and myself.

To me it feels like I am giving myself a giant hug and so much love. As I place my hands on my heart and breathe, I feel more gratitude within my body, and my inner child feels nurtured. It has brought me more peace and acceptance. I have found that I am getting less agitated at work, but it certainly doesn’t mean that I never do, I am just able to accept shitty things easier.

If someone screws me on a tip instead of letting it ruin my night, I let my frustrations out briefly and then move on with the mindset that someone will treat me nicely later. I also feel that I am more energetically open to receiving gifts from the universe.

I knew coming into this that visualization meditations were a struggle for me. I am never actually able to really visualize anything and I expend so much effort and energy trying to visualize that it doesn’t allow the meditations to be as calming as I would like them to be. That was still the case this month, but I did stop trying to visualize it, and just listened to the words of the meditation and went with it. But, I do tend to enjoy more the somatic, body sensing techniques used, as well as soft quotes and words that soothe me.

This next month I still feel a desire for my heart to open and expand even more so I am going to do 30 days of Gratitude and Acceptance meditations with some affirmations added in. For example, “May I be happy, may I be healthy, may I be safe, may I live with ease.”

I am really trying to take this time in my life to do things I love, that bring me joy, and bring me to life, and allow this to lead me onto the path of an aligned future. So gratitude and acceptance for what is, is huge for me right now and something I want to focus on. Rather than spending my whole life only focusing on what I want to change.

Sending you all so much love on your own journeys!

Britt